So thanksgiving break was very nessicary.
I slept. sooo much. it was greatness.
I saw my boyfriend for a bit, and i saw a few friends.
On tuesday i went to the movies with Nando, Casey and Briana.
Casey and Briana are two of the most amazing girls ever and I love them so much.
Wednesday Casey came over and we just hung. Tons of cheer stuff got finalized so it was great(:
Thursday My friend Marcos whos in college this year, came over for about four hours and I loved them.
He has always been such a good friend to me and the few times i see him Im really happy.
Friday my friend Zoe came over for a bit and Lexi R cam to spend the night. ahh. This girl is so crazy.
All of these people are so great. they always make me smile. <3
As for cheer, im excited. we're ordering uniforms (hopefully) Tomorrow, or thursday. or at the very latest, Saturday :D
I am veeeerrryyy excited about it because the uniforms are so cute(:
Winter guard news: I got a spot on the riffle line! :D It doesnt garentee a spot for sabor, but it increases them(:
Oh gosh im so excited. First competition at OUR school on Jan 28th Chino (my boyfriend) has agreed to do floor crew which means hes gonna be at every competion.
Im so excited. cause that means we'll have more time together(:
Although its only monday im already so tired! SIGH.
Relaxing sounds good.. haha
Good night <3
Monday, November 28, 2011
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Best Friends.
They get you through everything.
They consist of your life in high school
You have the best memories with them.
You do the craziest things with them.
Well, what if you're like me, and you dont really have a best friend
Or best friendS?
Of course i have friends, but they're all always there for me.
I hang out with all of them.
I do craqzy things with all of them.
Or, what if your best friend moved to Kansas and you have been assured that shes your best friend?
INSERT DRAMATIC SIGH HERE.
Although my friend Alexis has moved, we still talk sometimes.
and some days im like "oh hey lexi. blah blah blah"
But other days i miss her like crazy.
Todays one of those. I miss all the crazy stuff we used to do,
like sneaking into her school dance,
sneaking OUT of a middle school dance
hiding in a science lab
riding the after school bus together,
her coming home with me.
her surprising me at my school.
All of our inside jokes that we would be so excited about whenever they came up.
Being in the middle school play together
Disliking each others guts when we first met but laughing about it now <3
Helping me get through one of thee toughest break ups in the history!
I love this girl so much, and i miss her.
<3
They consist of your life in high school
You have the best memories with them.
You do the craziest things with them.
Well, what if you're like me, and you dont really have a best friend
Or best friendS?
Of course i have friends, but they're all always there for me.
I hang out with all of them.
I do craqzy things with all of them.
Or, what if your best friend moved to Kansas and you have been assured that shes your best friend?
INSERT DRAMATIC SIGH HERE.
Although my friend Alexis has moved, we still talk sometimes.
and some days im like "oh hey lexi. blah blah blah"
But other days i miss her like crazy.
Todays one of those. I miss all the crazy stuff we used to do,
like sneaking into her school dance,
sneaking OUT of a middle school dance
hiding in a science lab
riding the after school bus together,
her coming home with me.
her surprising me at my school.
All of our inside jokes that we would be so excited about whenever they came up.
Being in the middle school play together
Disliking each others guts when we first met but laughing about it now <3
Helping me get through one of thee toughest break ups in the history!
I love this girl so much, and i miss her.
<3
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
P.S.
The one person I miss the most, is the one I feel the most distant from...
I miss the way things used to be.
I wish I could go back to middle school when everything was so simple and so easy.
God I miss it.
I miss knowing who to go to when i needed something.
I miss trusting my teachers.
I miss the way somehow, everyone was friends
I truly felt like we were a family.
Now, I dont know what to think.
I dont know who to trust, or who to run to, or anything.
I just want to leave high school.
I hate it.
iroknh wiO:KTLNg haejwL><nmw rTHKJM,
^^^ The good ole days.
Goodnight.
I miss the way things used to be.
I wish I could go back to middle school when everything was so simple and so easy.
God I miss it.
I miss knowing who to go to when i needed something.
I miss trusting my teachers.
I miss the way somehow, everyone was friends
I truly felt like we were a family.
Now, I dont know what to think.
I dont know who to trust, or who to run to, or anything.
I just want to leave high school.
I hate it.
iroknh wiO:KTLNg haejwL><nmw rTHKJM,
Goodnight.
Coincidence?
Today, i made plans with some friends and my boyfriend to go out to the movies.
It ended up only being me, my friend Briana, my friend Casey, and my friend Fernando (Nando)
It really upset me that my boyfriend didnt go because i was really looking forward to seeing him.
but whatever right? Everything happens for a reason.
So while in line to buy snacks, My ex boyfriend Jesus walks by with his girlfriend.
I havent seen him in over a year and the sight of him makes my eyes light up and my heart begin to pound and brings this amazing smile to my face that I havent seen since January.
I could not believe it was actually him.
At that moment, seeing him, my boyfriend not showing up was the last thing on my mind.
It brought back some of the most amazing memories ever.
So whats the deal with him?
I dated him in 8th grade, and he was my first boyfriend.
he was the first love.
To this day sometimes i still have days that i miss him like crazy.
anyways we have a long history that is just so amazing. we had a good relationship but an even better friendship.
He was my best friend that year.
After we broke up, he got a new girl and she made him stop talking to me, and he did for a while.
then one day he came up to me and hugged me. it was suuch an amazing hug.
all he said was "im sorry" and i knew what he meant. he was sorry for leaving me and ignoring me for her.
anyways so now we go to two different schools and we hardly talk.
Seeing him made me happy. I wont lie.
It definitely made up for my boyfriend not going.
As for the movie, we watched Jack and Jill. So cute.
We went to jack in the box afterward.
I enjoyed myself very much.
(:
Tonights a memory night.
Memories keep flooding into my mind, and although im content with my life now, i miss it back then.
<3
It ended up only being me, my friend Briana, my friend Casey, and my friend Fernando (Nando)
It really upset me that my boyfriend didnt go because i was really looking forward to seeing him.
but whatever right? Everything happens for a reason.
So while in line to buy snacks, My ex boyfriend Jesus walks by with his girlfriend.
I havent seen him in over a year and the sight of him makes my eyes light up and my heart begin to pound and brings this amazing smile to my face that I havent seen since January.
I could not believe it was actually him.
At that moment, seeing him, my boyfriend not showing up was the last thing on my mind.
It brought back some of the most amazing memories ever.
So whats the deal with him?
I dated him in 8th grade, and he was my first boyfriend.
he was the first love.
To this day sometimes i still have days that i miss him like crazy.
anyways we have a long history that is just so amazing. we had a good relationship but an even better friendship.
He was my best friend that year.
After we broke up, he got a new girl and she made him stop talking to me, and he did for a while.
then one day he came up to me and hugged me. it was suuch an amazing hug.
all he said was "im sorry" and i knew what he meant. he was sorry for leaving me and ignoring me for her.
anyways so now we go to two different schools and we hardly talk.
Seeing him made me happy. I wont lie.
It definitely made up for my boyfriend not going.
As for the movie, we watched Jack and Jill. So cute.
We went to jack in the box afterward.
I enjoyed myself very much.
(:
Tonights a memory night.
Memories keep flooding into my mind, and although im content with my life now, i miss it back then.
<3
Monday, November 21, 2011
Thanksgiving Break..
So far is off to an amazing start. My friend Marcos who's in San Antonio for college is coming home on Tuesday, and we have plans to hang out on Friday :D Then my boyfriend and I made plans to go to the movies on Tuesday. Im sleeping in. Im practicing all my routines. Im actually relaxing, and stress free. I love this feeling. I think college will be a bit like this. Speaking of, a college in Minnesota sent me a letter :D Im just enjoying everything right now :3
Monday, November 7, 2011
That feeling..
when you remember something or someone and you miss them so much.
I'm having it noww!
Its terrible.
Want a story?
Once upon a time, there was a boy named Oscar and a girl named Brianna.
They were the best of friends and nothing could come in between their friendship.
Then one day, something or someone got in the way of their friendship.
Now they simply say their hellos and move on.
Sometimes Brianna wonders how Oscar could let go of such a great friendship.
Sometimes she thinks she did something to ruin it.
Other times she thinks he's so dumb and should really think about getting out of her life.
But on most days she wishes she had the courage to tell him she misses their friendship.
What hurts her, is that he acts like it never happened, but sometimes all she can think about is all the good times.
Brianna hopes that maybe one day things will go back to normal
The End.
See thats the short version of what happened between the two.
The long one... well its too long.
There was one day I was beyond sick and tired.
and Oscar and I were texting.
I dont really remember how it happened but he ended up calling me and singing until i fell asleep.
Today i listened to the song he sang.
I have not missed him this badly in a while.
<3
I'm having it noww!
Its terrible.
Want a story?
Once upon a time, there was a boy named Oscar and a girl named Brianna.
They were the best of friends and nothing could come in between their friendship.
Then one day, something or someone got in the way of their friendship.
Now they simply say their hellos and move on.
Sometimes Brianna wonders how Oscar could let go of such a great friendship.
Sometimes she thinks she did something to ruin it.
Other times she thinks he's so dumb and should really think about getting out of her life.
But on most days she wishes she had the courage to tell him she misses their friendship.
What hurts her, is that he acts like it never happened, but sometimes all she can think about is all the good times.
Brianna hopes that maybe one day things will go back to normal
The End.
See thats the short version of what happened between the two.
The long one... well its too long.
There was one day I was beyond sick and tired.
and Oscar and I were texting.
I dont really remember how it happened but he ended up calling me and singing until i fell asleep.
Today i listened to the song he sang.
I have not missed him this badly in a while.
<3
Thursday, November 3, 2011
I Figured It All Out(:
Things with my boyfriend of almost two months are better today.
They were never bad, but things just felt weird.
Today, I got this feeling, and things just make sense.
I never knew why I would always push him away from me, then go back and hug him tight.
Or why whenever he tries to say "I love you" i change the subject.
It makes sense now!!
Im just scared.
Scared of getting used to having him around and calling him my boyfriend to just to lose him.
Today when he walked me to third period, He accidentally kissed my neck instead of my cheek.
I got this feeling like I couldnt feel the floor.
On the after school bus, I could not stop smiling.
I wanted to be no where else than where I was, which was with him.
I cant finally admit that he makes me happy.
I dont mean "Happy" I mean HAPPY.
He's a total sweet heart, and I understand why I always treat him so badly.
Im scared to admit that I love him, but I think I really like him.
It all makes sense now, and I figured it all out.
I'm glad it wasnt too late(: <3
They were never bad, but things just felt weird.
Today, I got this feeling, and things just make sense.
I never knew why I would always push him away from me, then go back and hug him tight.
Or why whenever he tries to say "I love you" i change the subject.
It makes sense now!!
Im just scared.
Scared of getting used to having him around and calling him my boyfriend to just to lose him.
Today when he walked me to third period, He accidentally kissed my neck instead of my cheek.
I got this feeling like I couldnt feel the floor.
On the after school bus, I could not stop smiling.
I wanted to be no where else than where I was, which was with him.
I cant finally admit that he makes me happy.
I dont mean "Happy" I mean HAPPY.
He's a total sweet heart, and I understand why I always treat him so badly.
Im scared to admit that I love him, but I think I really like him.
It all makes sense now, and I figured it all out.
I'm glad it wasnt too late(: <3
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Explore, Dream, and Discover
It's one of those moods. I dont quite know how I'm feeling. All I know is that it's not a good mood. I wish i could complain about how much MY life sucks, but I know it's not that bad.
Sure I grew up without a dad, 3/4 of the country did too. Sure our financial status was below average for a while, 40% of Americas was too. Sure I left all my friends in California to move to dumb old Texas. I'm sure im not the only one.
I used to cut myself, I'm not the only teen girl who thinks thats going to fix things.
I used to be bolimic, again, im not the only one.
I used to skip meals all the time.
Im not "confessing" all of this for pitty, im doing it because as hard as I think my life is, i know im not the only one.
My point is, instead of resorting to one of my old "tricks" I'm resorting to this. to inspiring whoever reads this, and pray that they dont make the same mistakes I did.
As upset and stressed out as I am, and as tempting it is to stay away from those bad habits, and how hard it is, I do my absolute best. Do I slip up? Of course.
I've been in school for about 2 and a half months.
I've eatten lunch about 20 times.
I just miss being completely happy, but im glad my friends help me through a lot.
I honestly cannot wait for summer. This summer im taking my driving classes, and getting extra credits, and if all goes well, I might go out to Penn State to look at the campus. I might even go to UCLA.
Right now, thats whats getting me through school, knowing that im that much closer to leaving <3
So, thanks for listening <3
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Sure I grew up without a dad, 3/4 of the country did too. Sure our financial status was below average for a while, 40% of Americas was too. Sure I left all my friends in California to move to dumb old Texas. I'm sure im not the only one.
I used to cut myself, I'm not the only teen girl who thinks thats going to fix things.
I used to be bolimic, again, im not the only one.
I used to skip meals all the time.
Im not "confessing" all of this for pitty, im doing it because as hard as I think my life is, i know im not the only one.
My point is, instead of resorting to one of my old "tricks" I'm resorting to this. to inspiring whoever reads this, and pray that they dont make the same mistakes I did.
As upset and stressed out as I am, and as tempting it is to stay away from those bad habits, and how hard it is, I do my absolute best. Do I slip up? Of course.
I've been in school for about 2 and a half months.
I've eatten lunch about 20 times.
I just miss being completely happy, but im glad my friends help me through a lot.
I honestly cannot wait for summer. This summer im taking my driving classes, and getting extra credits, and if all goes well, I might go out to Penn State to look at the campus. I might even go to UCLA.
Right now, thats whats getting me through school, knowing that im that much closer to leaving <3
So, thanks for listening <3
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