It's one of those moods. I dont quite know how I'm feeling. All I know is that it's not a good mood. I wish i could complain about how much MY life sucks, but I know it's not that bad.
Sure I grew up without a dad, 3/4 of the country did too. Sure our financial status was below average for a while, 40% of Americas was too. Sure I left all my friends in California to move to dumb old Texas. I'm sure im not the only one.
I used to cut myself, I'm not the only teen girl who thinks thats going to fix things.
I used to be bolimic, again, im not the only one.
I used to skip meals all the time.
Im not "confessing" all of this for pitty, im doing it because as hard as I think my life is, i know im not the only one.
My point is, instead of resorting to one of my old "tricks" I'm resorting to this. to inspiring whoever reads this, and pray that they dont make the same mistakes I did.
As upset and stressed out as I am, and as tempting it is to stay away from those bad habits, and how hard it is, I do my absolute best. Do I slip up? Of course.
I've been in school for about 2 and a half months.
I've eatten lunch about 20 times.
I just miss being completely happy, but im glad my friends help me through a lot.
I honestly cannot wait for summer. This summer im taking my driving classes, and getting extra credits, and if all goes well, I might go out to Penn State to look at the campus. I might even go to UCLA.
Right now, thats whats getting me through school, knowing that im that much closer to leaving <3
So, thanks for listening <3
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